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Sunday, May 27, 2012

Another New Chapter part 1...

Well, I'm about to embark on ANOTHER new chapter of my life! I'll give you a little background information first...

This past January after a bridal show my business parter/best friend/soul mate and I had some BIG decisions to make about our cake business. We were growing and had some good opportunities come our way. I had come to a point in my life where I was dependent on the income and had to decide if I wanted to go full throttle with the cakes or find a different career. The problem with the cakes is that I knew I could NOT do it with the kids around. I tried to stick it out and be a stay at home mom at the same time. I am not one to say I can't do something, but after SHEER UTTER chaos with the kiddos every time I went to work on an order, I finally had to admit it wasn't working. (Ohhhhhh, how Tabatha and I have some horror stories about our kids and...well...cake!! I'll save those for another blog :)

The Lord was convicting Tabatha as well about our business. Last fall we had a good conversation where we both admited that we were taking on too much. Its so easy to play it off as a blessing from God.... every time an order would come in we would get excited. People liked our product and were choosing to do their business with US, God is good. But something just didn't add up with that statement because our kids were being neglected and that clearly was not part of His will. We admited that the business made us feel good about ourselves, but wasn't God's best for our lives. So in the fall we took one step back. After January we decided to finish out our contracts and orders and phase out the business. The night I officially made up my mind to phase out the business was a hard one for me. I loved the businesss and it was so sad to let it go. I had a good cry over it and then God began to so graciously bless my decision. That'll be for part 2 because this is getting pretty long :)

Sunday, May 6, 2012


Last week was a crazy week for me and yesterday I knew I needed some good quality time with God. I had been just reading a few verses in the morning and begging Him to give me the energy and will power to get through the day... and when I still wasn't feeling it I just begged for Him to give me the desire to get out of bed!

I was reading Phillipians 2 about putting others above yourself. I became plagued with guilt realizing that I have not been doing that. I repented of it, but did not feel any better. I was still filled with guilt and hated who I was. I prayed about it and dug through my heart realizing that I felt so unloveable and worthless. I wanted desperately to do something wonderful sacrificial and noble to prove to everyone that I am not selfish anymore... that I am worth loving. But right here, right now, in my life I am wounded and can't do anything "grand". I am emotionally and physically worn out... and God is ok with that. I feel like He is just asking me to receive His love right now and I have to muster enough strength to pour that into my kids.

Then it hit me. I am living my spiritual life for approval (yes, I know I've blogged about this before and I should have already realized this by now, but I guess its a process :P ). So many of the works I do "for God" are really for approval. I should serve out of gratitude and love for Him.

So this is the way my prayer ended. I know I'm selfish and I want to work on that. AND other people might think I'm selfish too because, well, I have been. I'm so thankful that You (God) deeply love me and call me your beloved right here...right now. That thought actually blows my mind and fills me with gratitude and love for You. I'm not going to strive to change other's opinions of me or prove that I'm some kind of super christian... because I'm not.  I want to serve You simply because...I love You.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Cute answers from the boys' Bible Quiz

A while back I bought a book (on clearance of course :) that consisted of at least a hundred different Bible quizes for all ages. Tonight I thought it would be fun to do a few with the boys before family devos. After the first couple of questions I quickly realized that I needed to document their answers because.... oh how they made me laugh :)  Here are some of their answers...

What is the first book of the Bible? Jennifer 1:1
What happened when Lot's wife looked at the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah? She turned into an pig?
From where did the Wise Men, who came to see the baby Jesus, come? Sheep
What relation was Jacob to Esau? Crucified?....bestfriends? partners? (What?!?!)
What special food did the Israelites eat in the desert after they had escaped from Egypt? (Carter very serious) Sparkle.
Which bird returned to Noah's ark with an olive twig in its beak? A duck
What is the first book in the New Testament? Messiah
Which sea parted to allow Moses to lead the people safely out of Egypt? The Blue Sea?...The Grey Sea?
Where did Adam and Eve live before they disobeyed God? The Garden of Abraham? The Garden of God?
Which bird did Noah send out first from the ark? (Me..." a Rrrrrr") Carter " A raisen"
Name the first man created by God. - Evam
What is the name of the town where Jesus grew up? (Me... "Nnnnnn") Nazrael?....Nabraham?

In their defense they did get several answers correct, but whats the humor in writing about them :)