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Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Testimony


I thought I'd start this blog out with my testimony, the work the Lord's done in my life. I don't share it like I should because I'm afriad of what people will think of me, but God has been convicting me that HE wants the glory. As I look back at the circumstances and events that have gone on in my life, I can see so clearly the work of God and it brings me to praise Him. I consider my testimony basically to be my life story, so I decided to post a little at a time!

My sister was in 2nd grade and had just gotten saved. Everyone was excited and she got to get in front of the church and get baptized and even got a new Bible. Of course I wanted to get saved too, but my dad told me I wasn't old enough, so I logically thought that only 2nd graders could get saved.

The day I was promoted into 2nd grade VBS at my church, I raised my hand saying I wanted to get saved. I repeated a prayer after my teacher and immediately knew that I wasn't a Christian because I didn't mean any of the words I had prayed. I told my family I had gotten saved, was baptized, received my new Bible, and felt like that there was no turning back now. What would everyone think of me if I told them I wasn't really saved? I couldn't get baptized again, and what would my grandparents think once they realized that I didn't really deserve the Bible that they had bought for me ( I'm not sure why the Bible thing was such a big deal to me!).

After that I had persistent nightmares about the rapture coming and would pray every night to be saved, but I was never sorry for my sins. I'm not sure why, but I just didn't feel bad about doing wrong, and I knew I had to to become a child of God. Something else that I experienced during that time that I haven't shared with anyone was a terror that would come over me when I was alone. When I was alone in my room I would hear screaming in my mind and would be terrified. Just to let you know, I never experienced that again after I decided to follow Christ. I don't know what the Bible says about that, but I just wonder if the screams and yelling that I heard had something to do with Satan.

Well, this will have to be it for the day. I'm certainly glad that my testimony doesn't end there :) Stay tuned for more!